Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“I hope to see you in the fall, when you and Gus get back,” she said.


Sam was not sure he was planning to return to Laclede’s Village. He passed over her remark by saying he would miss her and thanking her again for all she had done for him.


Mary shooed them out the door with the excuse that now she was without her cook, she had dinner to prepare. Sam knew it was to keep the parting from becoming too emotional.


Garrett and Gus headed for the livery. Sam steered Todd down the street to the general store. True to his word Todd would never return to the mill, Sam bought him clothes and supplies he would need on his trip across country. Todd protested, but in the end acquiesced, acknowledging he had no desire to return to the mill. The few possessions that would be left behind wouldn’t be missed


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