Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“He’s upset because he thinks he loves Todd, but feels he could also love Garrett. Now he’s seen Garrett with another man in his arms. Anyone can see that bothers him.”


“Ah,” said the bear, looking intently at Sam. “So, you are torn between the two?”


“What should I do?” Sam asked the pair.


“Is there a need to be torn?” the bear asked.


“And,” the hawk interrupted, “he thinks Todd may find Garrett to his liking as well.”


“Is that a problem for you? I don’t see why it should be,” the bear said to Sam.


“It’s a problem because I—” Before Sam could finish, another voice broke in.


Sam wheeled around to see Todd walking out of the trees. He looked quickly back over his shoulder. The bear and the hawk were gone.


“An Indian custom. Greeting the day,” he said awkwardly, turning back to the approaching man.


Chapter 54