Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“Wolf,” Sam commanded, “lay down. Stay.” The wolf-dog obeyed.


Sam looked at Todd, shafts of silver moonlight playing on his face. Sam walked to him and took him in his arms. They kissed.


“Wish it was warmer,” said Todd as they stepped apart and began to undress.


Sam had to agree. He was shivering as he dropped his pants and peeled his shirt from his body. They quickly lay on one of the blankets and covered themselves with the other. Their lips met and tongues danced. They massaged chilled muscles until the heat of their rising passion drove back the cold of the night air. Todd lay on his back, Sam on his side supporting himself with his arm, looking down on the boyish face. He slipped one arm beneath Todd’s shoulder and stroked his face with the other. He lowered his face to kiss him.


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