Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“You are welcome to hunt the buffalo. We are pleased you would share your hunt with us.”


The brave dismounted and shook Sam’s hand in Indian fashion.


“What’s goin’ on?” Cody asked again more insistently.


Sam turned to him. “I told him we would divide our kill with them in thanks for letting us hunt.”


Sam could tell Cody didn’t care much for this arrangement. He was grateful the man held his tongue.


Sam then performed the required ritual and the men set to the task of dressing out the buffalo. When they finished, the Indians took their share and departed.


“What the hell did you give half our kill away for?”


“Better than sharing your scalp with them. You saw they were a war party. You saw the paint on their faces and horses. While we’re in their territory, it’s better to show we’re friends. Sharing the kill is the best way to show that.”


Chapter 78