Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“Am I to reveal to others who I am?” Sam asked.


“You are not to hide who you are. You must never again deny your father. If asked, you must disclose the truth. Your path will be revealed to you in this way. If you continue to hide Soaring Hawk, you will wander for a long time.”


“Yes, Grandfather,” said Sam, using the name of honor for the man.


They sat again in silence, Ancient Fire’s eyes closing once again. After a time, Wolf rose and walked over to the shaman. He turned, sat next to him, and looked back at Sam.


“Look to S’unktokeca,” the shaman said using the Indian word for Wolf’s name. “Like you, his mother and father are of two worlds. It is no accident he came to be with you. When the time is right, he will show you the way.”


Sam nodded solemnly, not fully comprehending, but trusting the shaman’s words.


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