Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“Well, pleased to meet you boys. I’m Garrett Taylor and this is Gus Hendersen.” Gus nodded. “Todd Perkins.” Todd shook hands with the men. “And Sam Hawkins.”


At the mention of his name, Ramón smiled. Sam felt something inside melt and flow out to the man sitting next to him. It was a feeling he had never had in his life. It both excited and frightened him at the same time.


“Ah, Sam Hawkins? So you are not Mexican after all?”


Sam had difficulty finding his voice. When he did, he was as astonished as his three companions at what came out. “My real name is Soaring Hawk. My father was River Runs Deep, chief of the people back home. My mother was Martha Hawkins, a white woman.”


“Ah,” responded the young Mexican, “that makes you all the more intriguing.” He pressed his leg more firmly against Sam’s beneath the table.


“Why didn’t you ever tell us you was an Indian?”


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