Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

He recalled the words of Ancient Fire. “Look to S’unktokeca,” the old shaman had said. “When the time is right, he will show you the way.”


So now, he followed Wolf. And the dog seemed to know where he was to lead as he maintained a steady course northward. The mountains loomed ahead of them. The same feeling he’d had that they were calling him when he first saw them returned.


On the fourth day after leaving the hacienda,Sam stopped for the night in a grove of spruce trees. He built a fire and cooked a rabbit he had shot that afternoon. After eating, sharing the meal with Wolf, he stared into the fire. He did not know where he was, but it didn’t upset him. He didn’t know where he was going, but he was not disturbed by this either. He was content, for the moment, to be wherever he was, to be with Wolf, and to let the future and memories of the previous two years sort themselves out.


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