Toby Cartwright hopes his work as a blogger about gay masculine bears will help him find the bear of his dreams. When English teacher Blue Danning asks to borrow a few of Toby’s articles to teach writing methods to his students, initially Toby refuses, until his best friend and gym owner David King persuades him otherwise. Toby and Blue hit it off and start dating. Then Toby meets musician Grant Stevens. Not only does Grant find Toby attractive, but he also buys the blogger a drink. Following one of Grant’s shows, Toby decides to take the singer home. What happens between the singer and blogger is a surprise, leaving Toby to question every man out there. Unable to give up on his bear hunt, Toby is asked to house-sit for Denver Ralston, a sexy muscular bear who works as a nutritionist at David’s gym. But Toby accidentally exposes Denver’s secret, changing their relationship forever. Each day courier Carey Cunningham delivers a mysterious envelope to Toby which contains suggestive pictures of Toby. Who's sending them, and why? When Toby finds out, he’s shocked at the results. Finally, leading porn star and Toby’s former childhood friend Jim Bone comes to town and invites Toby out to catch up on old times. When they meet, they reflect on their past and how their lives have changed. One of these adorable men has to be the right one for Toby. But who is it?

Bear Hunting

The water is warm and refreshing, just as he thinks it will be. He holds his breath, keeps his mouth shut, and swims through the comforting stillness, bending his elbows and knees, kicking water behind him as if he is a fish, Michael Phelps, or a merman, relishing this time alone, and having the pool all to himself, without any hindrances of the world around him.


Eventually he surfaces for air, breaking through the calm water, and meets night. 25: What Toby Reads


Toby dries off with a fluffy blue towel next to the pool. Head first, shoulders, chest, private parts, ass and back, and his legs. He places the towel over a chaise lounge that sits next to the pool, drying it out overnight, which might be a challenge since the humidity is so thick, and probably won’t break for the next few days. His cellphone beeps inside the house and he escapes the pool area, having every intention of fetching the device.


Chapter 18