Chapter 34

And suddenly I wasn’t certain my trying to stay at arm’s length—by letting him believe something that wasn’t the truth—waswhat I wanted to do anymore. Why the change of heart? Hell if I knew right then. Perhaps because he was so accepting of everything? Or because he had a strength that I don’t think he knew he possessed? Because he wasn’t human? I’d hate to think I was prejudiced that way—but after Ian…Yeah, perhaps that was part of it too.

“That shut you up,” he said wryly.

“Sorry.”

“It’s okay. I just needed to say it; even though I have the feeling I should have kept my damned mouth shut. Now you’re going to wonder if having me around is such a good idea after all.”

No. What I was wondering was—am I just like Ian? Pretending to be something I’m not to gain my own objectives? Ian was right when he said he played me well. Am I doing that to Ephram? Am I that much of a coward that I need to lie to him—by omission—for fear I’ll be hurt again?