Chapter 35

“Would you?” Dubois’s voice was barely a whisper. “Would you kill me if I slipped into your bed one night?”

What was it about Dubois that made him feel so incapable, so meek, like a man lost at sea with no point of reference, no map, no sun, no stars, only this black sky of possibilities, each one more terrifying than the next?

Yet, as lost as he was, Joe had never felt so free.

“You don’t have to answer me.” Dubois sighed and stretched out, lying on his back. “If I come to you, and you do hurt me, I won’t mind it so much.”

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In the middle of the night, the bomb went off in Joe’s head again and he opened his eyes, looking into the dark cell.

Surrendering, he let out a long sigh.

He couldn’t fight it anymore.

If he didn’t touch Dubois tonight, he’d go mad.

Joe sat up, and then rubbed his face, trying to restrain himself. He didn’t want to hurt Dubois, but he was afraid of his own urgent need. He’d go to him. Yes, he’d climb in next to him.