English professor Brian Daly is finally able to live openly with the love of his life, local weatherman Jay Tanner. Jay has ended his sham marriage and come out of the closet, and he and Brian now share a condo in the city. But there’s trouble in paradise. Brian’s best friend Olivia can’t seem to get along with Jay. The two bicker whenever they’re together. In addition to trying to broker peace between his friends, Brian is busy fending off Sean, an infatuated student who wants Brian to be his first lover. When Brian spurns his advances, he threatens to accuse the professor of sexual harassment if the two don’t sleep together. Just when things seem like they can’t get any worse, Brian discovers Jay has been cheating on him with a woman. And not just any woman -- Olivia, who is now pregnant with Jay’s child. Brian’s world crumbles as his relationship with Jay falls apart and his friendship with Olivia is destroyed. While he works to try and put his life back together, Brian is relentlessly pursued by Sean. But this time Brian doesn’t turn him away, and the two begin a relationship that helps Brian get over some of the heartache he’s suffered. After a while, Brian also reunites with Olivia, and becomes a kind of surrogate father to her newborn daughter. The baby helps him hold onto Jay in some small way. Even though he and Jay are no longer a couple, Brian still longs for his former partner. But when Jay reappears in Brian’s life, Brian discovers he isn’t quite ready to forgive and forget. While he still loves Jay, will he ever be able to trust the man again?

Collusion

You know you like this! Tell me you like it, you little faggot!


??I can??t,?? I said, pushing him away. ??I??m sorry.??


He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. ??Don??t apologize. You can??t help how you feel. I really hoped we could get past what happened.??


??I havegotten past it,?? I told him. ??If I hadn??t, I??d be in bed with you right now.??


Mitchell tried to get me to stay and spend the night with him, assuring me that we wouldn??t have to do anything I didn??t want to do, but I declined.


As I walked home, I felt frustrated that I was going to spend yet another night alone making love to my hand, but satisfied that I hadn??t caved to Mitchell??s advances. Sleeping with him would have certainly helped ease my physical needs (because I hadn??t been with a man since my ill-fated visit to see Jay in the spring), but it also would have messed me up mentally and my mind was fucked enough already. 13


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