Chapter 9

So are we still friends? Lovers? Coz I still love you. I love you a lot.

G.18 Aug. 74

Gordon,

I was a bit surprised to get your last letter from Lanky. You didn’t answer my last two letters so I thought it was all over between us. Then you write and tell me you still love me. It’s up and down with you. Either you love me or you don’t. And if you love me, then you should trust me, but now you’ve spoilt it because you made me think we weren’t together anymore. You can’t blame me. You’re really fucking with my head, you know.

Julian21 Aug. 74

Julian,

What have I spoilt? What can’t I blame you for? What have you done? You haven’t slept with that Preston cunt? You haven’t, have you? Tell me. I’ll find out anyway. How could you do it? I can’t believe you did that. I did trust you. Shit! Shit! Shit!

Gordon28 Aug. 74

J.