Chapter 98

He’d been a good brother once, right up until Ali was thirteen, and the change had hurt.

“I want to hate him.”

“Well, I’ll hate him for you, yeah?”

Ali laughed wetly. “Yeah, okay,” he croaked. “If I hated him, I wouldn’t even think about doing this. It’s just…Mum, and…and…”

Yazid kissed the top of Ali’s head. “If you were a little more selfish, then it’d be an easy choice, but you’ve spent years taking on other people’s guilt and problems. You still twitch when other people call me names, you still apologize for Tony being a racist, you still act like you personally have butchered someone if you miss a blood donation session. If you’d learn how to be a bit more of a bastard, it’d be easy.”

Ali laughed again, some of the tight pain easing. He unwound himself to push a kiss into Yazid’s cheek.

“You’re a saint,” Yazid said, “and it can be pretty fucking impossible for saints to make the quick decisions us mere mortals can.”