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I was going to be fine. I would survive. I would heal. Tuck wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. I continued to write, visit the Martini Room, and drink martinis, toasting the memory of the man that I had fallen in love with. And when I became too drunk, having consumed far too many cocktails, enjoying my evenings alone, I promised that someday I would learn to play the piano, one ivory keystroke at a time, forever allowing Tucker Martini to live within my fingers, chord after chord, and piano song after song. Again, he wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. 48: That Night and Carl’s Great Plan
November 27, 2015
I was a writer then; I am a writer now. But I wasn’t someone who kept a diary. Never. Not once in my life. Not a blog. Not a book of daily events. Not a journal. But if I did keep one of those written accessories to life, it would have read about that night: