Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

“Why are you looking at me like that?”


“Because you are going to love this sandwich. Oh, I got the job at Ristorante Italiano downtown. They called thirty minutes ago. I start next Monday morning, helping with breakfast and lunch.”


“That is totally awesome, dude. That place is far out, but it’s the only Italian restaurant I’ve ever heard that’s open for breakfast.”


“Hey, it’s downtown. Gotta cater to the business people.” Brian’s grin was Christmas-day quality. “Yeah, I’m scared, but looking forward to it.” He cut the colossal sandwich into sections, served an ample slice to Jim, and took one for himself. “There’s coleslaw in the bowl.”


“I love your slaw. It’s awesome.”


“You read about cooking and you think I’mgay? Ha!” He took a huge bite. “Wow. What’s in this?”


Before responding, Brian took a gentle bite. Jim locked his gaze on his friend’s smooth face, showing no signs of a beard starting. Jim, however, shaved once a week.


Chapter 11