Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

Mr. Truttle left on another driving trip. Jim brought in the mail. “Something for your dad from some high school in Oklahoma. I’ll put it in on his dresser.”


Brian snatched the envelope. “I’ll take care of it. Probably a reunion or something.” He shoved it in his back pocket.


Jim stared with squinted eyes. “Are you his secretary now?”


Brian glared. “I’m trying to help him. He’s busy.”


Jim joined Brian again in visiting Mrs. Guardino on 10thStreet. She liked to bake but wasn’t able to do it much, so Brian baked for her. She told nice stories from her life, which lightened her moods. Plus, the boys enjoyed them, especially since neither had extended family or grandparents in the area.


Chapter 37