Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

Jim offered his hand. “Welcome home.”


“You’re my second son, and in this family, we hug. How in the hell are you, Jim? You look great.” He wrapped his arms around him.


Second son.Jim held tight. “Gosh, I’m fine, Mr. Truttle. We missed you. Are you okay? Did anyone try to hurt you?” Jim realized he didn’t swear, and he couldn’t remember the last time he did.


Mr. Truttle laughed. “A few minor scrapes here and there, but I’m fine—homesick, but fine. Made great money, enough to pay off the last of the mortgage, and I’m going to have Brian write the check for it. I even got laid a time or two.”


“Or twenty or thirty times.” Brian came forward and made it a group hug.


The boys carried Mr. Truttle’s two luggage bags inside.


“Whoa, it smells great in here. Don’t suppose there are any beers in the house?”


Chapter 54