“It’s real, Carter. You know it’s real. It’s why I’ve been trying to keep you out of it.”
Carter’s hands were shaking around the empty glass. Lew reached out and wrapped his hands round them. “Carter…look at me. Look. At. Me.” He kept his voice low and steady and non-threatening and Carter slowly looked up again and met his eyes. “It’s real. I’m real. You’re real. This is real.” Very gently he took the glass out of the other man’s trembling fingers and placed it on the countertop behind him. He kept hold of his hand. His other hand, he brought up to cup Carter’s jaw. “Alistair,” he said. “Alec. I’m sorry.”
His thumb was stroking along Carter’s jaw, soothing. Carter all of a sudden seemed to give up and turned his cheek into his hand, eyes shut, fingers clasping his own. “This isn’t real,” he repeated under his breath. “It can’t be. I can’t…”