Chapter 11

This, I thought,is what he wants and needs. It didlook kind of like an addict’s euphoria, and that troubled me. But I left him in that state, and went to take a shower; I felt an irrational need to clean myself off, and perhaps to feel the comforting warmth of the water around me.

At one point during my shower I felt I was being watched. I turned around and thought I saw his disappearing leg, but wasn’t sure. I shook my head, trying to dismiss an odd feeling. Had he come into the shower room to take a gander?

If he had, I wasn’t quite sure how to take that. 5: More Revelations

The experience didn’t make things easier between us. I felt a little uneasy, like I had prostituted myself—for there hadn’t been a real sense of connection, and he hadn’t given anything back, beyond the usual tablespoonful of seed.