Chapter 26

I was convinced, beyond all sanity and expectation that Matt cared for me. I felt a lump in my throat and couldn’t speak.

“Why me?” he said.

I swallowed and said, “Well—” But then I paused, unable to continue.

He looked away, and said quietly. “Thanks.”

“For what?”

“What you did. You showed me—how to accept being me.”

“Oh. You’re welcome.” But now I felt a rock land in my stomach. I didn’t exactly want a heart-felt thank you from this man.

Matt looked at me again. “Thatdidn’t sound too happy,” he said, giving me a frowning sort of smile.

I shrugged. I was holding back tears.

“It—” I began. “It wasn’t what I had hoped you were going to say.”

He looked at me. “And what—” But then he stopped and shaking his head, looked away. Then he removed his arm and stood up. I didn’t look at him, didn’t watch him leave a moment later. I felt filled with lead, and remained where I was, long time. I started to smell cooking, and sighed, smiling sadly.