Chapter 68

“Even when I came over to help you. You swung at me only long enough to get me caught up in hitting you. Then you shut down.” When Noah didn’t say anything, Mason added, “I think you’re trying to punish yourself for being gay.”

“I’m not gay.” Noah pulled his hands from Mason’s. He fisted one, and rubbed his forehead with the other.

“It’s okay.” Mason rested his hand on Noah’s arm, hoping to calm him.

“No, it’s not. I can’t be.” Instead of pacifying him, Noah yelled louder. “I can’t lose anything else. I can’t be gay.”

Mason was confused. “What are you talking about? What do you think you’re going to lose?”

“I already lost the only thing I ever cared about. I can’t lose anything else. It’ll kill me.” Noah wasn’t peering at Mason any more. It was as if he was off in his own world, and Mason couldn’t get to him.

“Noah. What are you talking about? What did you lose?”