Actor Alex Lockhart’s career is in a good place. The roles are coming in, the work is steady, and everything is falling into place. Even his sex life, since Alex finally hooked up with another hot actor, Spencer Johns, and Spencer pushes every one of Alex’s buttons. Then, just when Alex is on the verge of landing an exciting role, he learns the part went to Spencer. And Spencer didn’t even bother to mention he was up for the part. Feeling furious and betrayed, with one punch Alex takes their sudden feud public. Hollywood is abuzz with their rivalry. When a chance at a great independent movie comes up, Alex can’t turn down the role, even if Spencer is also slated to be in it. Beneath his outward hate and loathing for Spencer simmers hurt and a desperate want Alex can’t seem to quell. But as he tries to hold onto the hurt and anger, Alex learns Spencer isn’t quite what he thought. Can burning desire and want be enough to put out the flames of Alex’s rage?

Something Like Want

I didn’t say anything more, but neither did Spencer. He just kept looking at me. Finally I sighed heavily and said, “We, you know, got off to a bad start. And then things were better, but you never said we were going to be anything more. And last time I assumed we were going to be more, you did what you did, and I wasn’t going to go through that again. I couldn’t let myself.”


I didn’t mean for it to come out accusingly, but it certainly sounded that way; I didn’t do anything to try to fix it. I was hurt and confused, and he wasn’t talking. What was I supposed to think?


“Yeah,” he said, “okay. Our history isn’t the greatest. So I’m just gonna lay out what I want, all right? And then you do the same.” He waited for my nod before he continued. “I want you. All the time. I want you to be mine, I want to date just you. Only I want to stop this dance we’ve been doing and just be together.”


“Really?” My surprise was evident in my tone.


Chapter 38