Chapter 185

“If…” Dean took in a breath so deep, he appeared to shudder. “I can’t imagine life without you but if that ever comes true, I don’t know. I don’t know whether I’d end up with a woman or a man. Maybe not anyone, but if I did, it’d be a woman, I think, but I don’t know…” He looked up, stared at Jay. “Because I’m bisexual, and I think, maybe that doesn’t need to be as scary as it seemed to me a few weeks ago. I’m not saying I have all the answers, but I can admit that now. And admit I want to learn more. I’m willing to explore what it means. For me. For you. For us. The only thing I have no doubts about is my loving you. I guess part of me may always want sex with a woman, but not all relationships are about sex, or just sex.”

He took a step closer, hand going to a pocket. “My wanting a woman won’t be a problem because I choose you. I love you. I need nothing else. I want no one else. Which is why…” Dean pulled his hand back out, making Jay’s heart lurch.