Chapter 44

If this is how you feel, how can you deny our company? You walked away without even saying farewell, leaving your letter to explain it when we both desire far more than the written page. Even now, you say you refuse to hope we will be together. Of what use is love if neither party is granted the gifts that come with it?

I am not angry, though I know it must sound as such. I’m merely confused, because this is all so very new to me. I was hurt when you ignored me at the party after the recitation, yes, but knowing why ameliorated that. Tell me how it is I am supposed to live with the knowledge that miles separate us when neither of us wishes it, how I’m supposed to ignore the dreams where you whisper those words in my ear only to wake in the morning with my pillow damp because they are merely a fragment of my imagination.