In 1974, Gerry Faun gets the break of his life -- an opportunity to meet gorgeous, openly bisexual, glam-rock idol Mark Devon. Mark's world is new, exciting, and Gerry finally gets to explore the side of his sexuality he's kept hidden. But the press is everywhere, and when Gerry's father gets wind of what's going on behind his back, Gerry ends up on the street. Mark offers to let Gerry come along with the tour and Gerry jumps at the chance. The tour is a never-ending party -- and the start of what seems to be a perfect relationship for him and Mark. Until Mark's manager decides Gerry isn't worth the trouble he's stirring up. In 1994, Gerry is finally coming out of some tough times -- he has a job that pays the bills, a car that hasn't quite broken down, and a small rental in Jersey City. After a decade of barely getting by, if life was as good as it was going to get, Gerry figures he'll manage just fine. It would be easier if he wasn't still haunted by the man the media won't let him forget, the man who stole his heart and then broke it ... the man who’s shown up pleading for a second chance.

Fawn on the Moon

He flung his arm over his head and buried his face in the muscle. He breathed in the scent of his own skin, of day-old sweat, and willed the process to wipe the remaining dream fragments out of his mind. So many years forgotten; did it really only take one moving image and a couple of moments of the man’s voice to bring everything back? It wasn’t fair. It shouldn’t be so hard to forget, and yet so easy to fall back into remembering.


You had everything. Everything you’d ever wanted and more than anyone could need. But that was the problem, wasn’t it, Mark? You could never make yourself understand there was a difference between those things. That want wasn’t need by any means, and need could never be want.


Chapter 8