“Thank you again for staying,” Lucian said graciously, punching a pillow with his fist and settling on his side, back to Shea. “Love having you here, and I hope you sleep well.”
“You’re welcome,” Shea said in the darkness, and Lucian tightened into a ball when he couldn’t make head or tails of the inflection.
With an exhale Lucian hoped was quieter than it sounded in his head, Lucian forced himself to relax against the feather mattress. It didn’t matter that lying like this instead of curling around Shea was harder than taking the bar exam blindfolded, it was what he’d promised Shea. Lucian ignored the indignant pieces of himself that wondered when it was, exactly, that Lucian had grown such a monstrous conscience and tenuous nature about sex. The rest of him understood that Shea was sharing his bed. The rules were different. The needs were different.
Even if the want was overpowering.