“Kid, you have no idea.” For some reason, Nathan started to laugh again, and he slumped to the ground. He missed a patio lounge and landed on his ass, but he barely felt it. The kid chose that moment to flee. Good riddance to him.
Nathan bent his knees and rested his head on them, wheezing for air. He tried to put his glass down, and the base broke. A shard cut his hand, and the rest of the glass rolled away with a dull clatter. Blood welled in the cut under his thumb, and it spilled in a fascinating sync to the pulse at his wrist.
Nathan didn’t feel drunk. Or he didn’t feel only drunk. He felt numb. Scattered. Broken. He sort of liked it, though, sitting alone, chanting his own version of prayer to the gods of destruction. Please oh please, let him stay in the cold, dark place where he didn’t feel anything. Reality was harsh, bright, and rough, but this was cloudy, soft, and gentle.