He couldn’t lose Ian. Not now. Not when they’d only just stepped over the wall that had been separating them. He would even be all right if Ian said no more sex. At least he would have had a taste of what it could have been like, one amazing night where the world disappeared and for a few liberating hours, Lucas could just be. It took all of his self-control to relax his arms and let them drop to his sides. It took even more to keep his voice calm.
“Other than turning ourselves in, tell me what it’ll take to help you,” he said. “I’m not ready to stop trying, and I’d like it if you weren’t, either. I can’t do this without you, Ian.”
Doubt still darkened Ian’s eyes. The twitch of a muscle in his cheek threatened to kindle into something more, but Lucas watched him swallow twice, each time steadying his breath another fraction, until his nostrils no longer flared.
“I don’t want to be your nemesis on this,” Ian said.