Chapter 84

Words continued to spill out. “I asked him about Christian once,” Julian said. “Uncle. He said of course not. Said that what he and I had was special, that he’d never felt that way about anyone else. I think he thought I was jealous.” He shuddered. “I wasn’t. I’m not as big a fool as Aaron. But fool enough to believe him. I can’t believe I believed him.”Julian was digging his fingernails into his own shoulders; they would draw blood any second. He deserved to bleed, deserved to hurt.

Rafi knelt in front of him and gently pulled his hands away.

Julian gave a choking sob. “You can still touch me? I can barely stand to touch myself.” It was Rafi’s skin his nails bit into now, digging into his wrists, but Rafi didn’t flinch, only cupped Julian’s cheek in one hand.

“What do you need from me?” Rafi said. “Whatever you need, it’s yours.”