Anyway, I’m rambling, winging my way heedlessly down memory lane when this is supposed to be about a new beginning.
It had stopped raining. The Panorama looked even drearier in the washed-out light of late afternoon, damp and still dripping. A carton from McDonald’s skittered along the sidewalk in front of the row of doors, and I wondered if that’s what passed for room service in this dump.
Mary Beth. Sure, I had considered calling her, telling her I was coming. I knew she’d insist I stay with her and her high-school-sweetheart husband, Brad, and their adolescent daughter, Grace.
And maybe that’s why I resisted even letting her know I was coming. My little sister, the one who’d always looked up to me as almost a father stand-in, now had a better life than I did. More luck in love. Happy. Settled. The American dream.
Does it make me a shallow person to say I wondered if it would hurt to see their happiness, coming so soon after my own failure?
Oh, shut up. You don’t know me.