Chapter 14

Simon finished, “But that doesn’t mean I wasn’t awful. I honestly was. Seducing the dreadfully straight boys just to say I had, as if it were a game. The dramatic makeup, the dramatic outfits—not that there’s anything wrong with that, and you know I still like dressing up. But why I was doing it, then…that was wrong. The reasoning. The things I’d say just to provoke reactions. Flirting with, well, everyone. Licking coconut cream off a fingertip during formal hall dining hours. Getting all those eyes to look at me. Being everything I’d been thrown out of the house for being, and worse. Because I could, and I was angry. You didn’t know me, then.”

“I’d’ve loved you anyway,” Ben said, completely devoted, and making mental notes about coconut cream. “And, come on, everyone’s awful at fifteen, that’s a rite of passage or something, seriously. I stole a car. Four times. Well, the same car four times.”

“You did?”