Chapter 57

I banged through the door on the porch and found him reaching into the back of his truck for a beer. I threw myself at him, wild, uncontrolled, furious, out of my mind. I pounded at his back with my fists.

It took him about all of ten seconds to have me flat on my back on the boards of the porch while he perched on my chest, holding my wrists so I couldn’t strike him. I threw my weight around, trying to dislodge him off my chest, shouting at him to get off.

He merely glared at me the way he did when we were little and we both knew that he had nothing to worry about from me.

At length, I stopped.

Tears sprang to my eyes. A huge blackness seemed to fall down from the sky on top of me, smothering me with the pointlessness of it all. Nothing I ever did would please these people.

He got off and held out his hand, which I ignored.

The door opened and everyone emerged.

Noah crouched down at my side, a frantic look in his eyes.

“You better tend to him, Mama,” Bill said.