Colby said, “Jason?”
Breathing. Right. Colby hadn’t meant to hurt him. He thought not, anyway. And Colby hadwanted to tell him. It was just—
The rush of his pulse filled his ears. He couldn’t meet familiar blue eyes.
He also couldn’t talk. Too few words. Or too many. Shoving themselves into knots on his tongue.
I love you, he failed to say aloud. I love you and you lied every time you pretended to be right there with me as far as loving or laughing over this script. I know you’re not used to trusting people, I know you believed every single fucking monster who told you you weren’t worth loving, I know you probably didn’t believe you could trust me—
The hurt twisted like screws. The ghosts of older words shrieked. Jason Mirelli, action hero. All muscles, maybe even a kind heart, but stupid. Good at kicking and punching and shooting things. Not subtleties. Not eloquence.
Not capable of anything more.
That wasn’t Colby’s fault. Colby didn’t think that about him.