Chapter 14

“The problem was, he told me, since the old Jason was dead and I was now David, I had to find out who David was and what he wanted out of life. Every time I started to do something without thinking, something run-of-the-mill as Jason, I had to stop and ask myself, ‘Is this something David would do?’ Like you do when you train a puppy or raise a child, I had to guide myself away from the behaviors that pulled Jason down into drugs.”

“Sounds like hell.” I wondered if I could have done it. I was pretty set in my ways.

“It was god-awful and still is sometimes.” He and I took sips from our cups, our eyes averted. My admiration was growing, but I was still doubtful. Could I take this as truth? If David was completely different from Jason, it was possible I wouldn’t even like him, much less love him. Somehow the thought made my heart break a little. All I’d ever wanted in life was to love and be loved by Jason. If he was to be believed, wasn’t my dream dead? Damn.