Chapter 16

“Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.”

When my phone buzzes, I jump, and my heart speeds up. Is it Frankie? Can he sense my freak-out?

I steel myself and look at the screen and almost fall over when it’s just a reminder of my upcoming meeting in fifteen minutes.

Of course. Frankie’s not a fucking psychic.

But it’s what I need to snap out of my panic. I take another deep breath, hold it in my belly, and then decide to stand the fuck up.

Mind over matter, Lawrence. Just do it.

I stand up straight, shrug out of my jacket, and brush rubbish from the tree off the back. Breathe in. When it’s clean enough, I put it back on. Breathe out.I run my fingers through my hair, rub my face with my hands, hoping to wipe away any traces of my freak-out. Another inhale forces the bile back down my throat, and on the exhale, I unclench my teeth.