Christ, I almost died with her in my arms only minutes ago.
“But you do think I’m attractive.”
“I’m gay, not blind, Connie.”
“And I know you want to kiss me,” she said, and my heart seemed to stop. There was a hint of teasing in her tone. I didn’t bother opening my mouth to deny it, just sat entirely still. She sounded so sure of it—too sure of it. “You wanted to when we were inside.”
“So?” It was all I could think to say.
“Why haven’t you? Tried to kiss me, I mean?”
“You mean—like, now? Or ever? Or inside—”
“Ever.”
“Because I know I shouldn’t.”
She looked away from me, then, and took another long drag. I wiped my hands against my thighs, wishing I too had something to hold, something to distract me.