Chapter 51

He hadn’t expected Gary to be so open. A small part of him could

admire Gary for his honesty, though most of him still railed at him

for hurting Trevor.

In a quieter voice, Gary

continued. “It’s something I’ll never be able to forgive myself

for. You don’t need me to tell you that Trevor doesn’t go in for

half-measures. He loved me, and I knew I was the centre of his

universe. And though I love Lisa and could never leave her, she

doesn’t love me with the same intensity that Trevor

did.”

“If you can’t leave her,

why did you turn up here?” Paul felt the urge to pace again, but

stopped himself.

Gary let out a breath and

continued to stare at the floor. “Because I was weak. A selfish

bastard.” Gary looked straight into Paul’s eyes. “I’m ashamed of

that. Remember what I said about being at the centre of Trevor’s

universe? It’s heady stuff. I wanted some more of that. Craved

it.”

“Even if it hurt Trevor

when you left again?”

Gary nodded, not meeting