He hadn’t expected Gary to be so open. A small part of him could
admire Gary for his honesty, though most of him still railed at him
for hurting Trevor.
In a quieter voice, Gary
continued. “It’s something I’ll never be able to forgive myself
for. You don’t need me to tell you that Trevor doesn’t go in for
half-measures. He loved me, and I knew I was the centre of his
universe. And though I love Lisa and could never leave her, she
doesn’t love me with the same intensity that Trevor
did.”
“If you can’t leave her,
why did you turn up here?” Paul felt the urge to pace again, but
stopped himself.
Gary let out a breath and
continued to stare at the floor. “Because I was weak. A selfish
bastard.” Gary looked straight into Paul’s eyes. “I’m ashamed of
that. Remember what I said about being at the centre of Trevor’s
universe? It’s heady stuff. I wanted some more of that. Craved
it.”
“Even if it hurt Trevor
when you left again?”
Gary nodded, not meeting