"Thank you for your concern. Then we will respectfully accept it.
Please protect us until we reach the exit."
This was the first sentence the leader of «Black Cats of the Full
Moon» guild, Keita spoke to me.
Five months had passed since the spring season's dusk when the
death game called SAO began. In order to collect material for weapons,
I had ventured into the labyrinth ten levels below the current front line.
As a Beater, I had rushed headlong since the beginning, utilizing
my experience as a beta tester. Adopting a tough solo player approach,
had enabled me to earn experience points very efficiently. It reached a
point where I could even defeat monsters on the front line solo. As
such, hunting at the current level was so easy and relaxing that it
became a boring task. By avoiding other players, I was able to obtain
the complete set of required amount of materials in two hours. As I
was preparing to move toward the direction of the exit, I encountered
a party retreating, a huge group of monsters pursuing them.
As a solo player, I immediately had the opinion that the party was
totally unbalanced. Within the five player party, the only player who
could assume a forward role is a guy carrying a mace and shield. The
others were just a thief equipped with a dagger, a staff user carrying a
two handed-staff and two long spear users. However when the mace
user's hit points were reduced drastically, there was no one else who
could substitute in. As a result, this type of party could only retreat
slowly.
To determine the status of everyone, I checked their hit points.
Apparently, it was more than sufficient for them to retreat safely to the
exit. However, that would no longer apply if they encountered another
group of monsters in the midst of retreating. After some slight
hesitation, I dashed out from the path I was hidden in and spoke to the
staff user who seemed to be the leader.
"Do you want me to assist with forward support?"
The staff user stared at me with his eyes wide open and nodded
his head after a moment of hesitation.
"Then, sorry for troubling you, but please retreat immediately if
there is any danger."
I nodded my head in acknowledgement and pulled a sword off of
my back before shouting from behind the mace user to switch in. Thus,
I rushed into the monsters' assault.
The enemies were a group of goblins which I had defeated in
numbers just a while back when hunting alone. These monsters could
be quickly defeated if I went all out with my sword skills. Even if I was
unable to defend against any of the attacks, I would be able to last for a
long time by depending on my «battle healing» skill to recover my hit
points. However, I was instantly concerned. Though I do not fear the
goblins, I was deeply concerned with the thoughts of those players
behind me.
In general, high-level players causing a big disturbance while
training in the lower levels was considered bad manners. If it persisted
for a period of time, the player would receive a harsh reprimand when
a request was made to a guild in the higher levels to resolve it. The
player would end up being reported in the newspaper's list of players
with bad etiquette and were subjected to a number of punishments.
Though that should not be an issue as I considered it an emergency
situation, it made me concerned. If not handled properly, they would
have labelled me as a Beater instead of showing gratitude.
As such, I intentionally prolonged the time required to defeat the
group of goblins by limiting the usage of my sword skills. At that time, I
was still unaware that this decision of mine would lead to an
irreparable mistake.
The whole group of goblins was finally defeated after several
rounds of rotation with the mace user, who had been constantly
replenishing his hit points with medicine. I was startled when this
unknown party of five players started to cheer loudly. They were
mutually giving each other a high-five rejoicing in the victory.
Though feeling at a loss, I still put on an unaccustomed smile
while shaking everybody's hands. The only female player in the party,
a black haired spear user held my hand last with both her hands while
repeatedly saying to me through her tears:
"Thank you... Thank you so much. I was really afraid... when
you came to our rescue, I was really happy. I truly appreciate your
help."
Hearing such words while seeing the flowing tears, there was this
indescribable emotion flowing through my chest. I remembered at that
moment when I helped them, it felt very good that I was strong enough
to be able to do so.
Although I had been a solo player since the game began, this was
not my first time helping other parties on the front line. However in a
strategic party, it is a tacit understanding that we were supposed to
help each other on the battlefield. Since there would be a day when I
would need help in return, I would help others without expecting
anything in return. Further, those being helped would only give a brief
greetings in return. This was the best way to quickly handle the postbattle silence before the start of the next battle. That simple rational
exists as a way to continuously and efficiently strengthen oneself.
However, they – the «Black Cats of the Full Moon» were different.
The whole party was overcome with great joy just from a round of
victory in battle, and were complementing each other's efforts. It
seemed like the victorious trumpet sound part at the end of a standalone RPG game when I proposed to accompany them to the exit. That
was probably influenced by the family-like atmosphere they had
among themselves. To describe it further, I felt that it was in fact they
who were finishing this mad game called SAO.
"I am also a little concerned about the remaining amount of
recovery medicine I have... If you don't mind, let's head toward the
exit together."
Keita nodded while expressing a huge laughter toward my lies.
"Thank you so much for your concern."
No, when I finally started to realize that it was just me who had
felt that it was a refreshing experience, it had been six months after the
disappearance of «Black Cats of the Full Moon». As someone who had
adopted the policy of being a solo player to accumulate strength,
protecting someone much weaker than myself gave of a pleasant
feeling similar to being depended upon. That is just how it was.
While in the main passage area after leaving the labyrinth, I had
agreed to Keita's invitation to an ale house, their treat. As such, we
were toasting in celebration with red wine they would consider
expensive. When my self-introduction ended, Keita hesitantly asked
about my current level in a whisper after the mood had calmed down.
I had more or less predicted this question would be asked. As
such, I had thought of an appropriate fake number a while back. The
number I told them was in fact about three levels higher than their
average level... but, it was actually twenty levels lower than my true
level.
"Huh! You can solo at this place with your current level?"
My sour expression when I replied to Keita surprised him.
"There is no need to speak in such a manner... even if being solo,
but basically I only select isolated enemies to attack while avoiding
detection. However in terms of efficiency, it is not very high."
"Oh... Indeed, then…... Although this is rather sudden.... But I
think some guilds will invite you to join them very soon... If you are
willing, would you like to join our guild?"
"Huh...?"
Facing me who was unsure how to respond, Keita's face which
was totally red, got more excited as he spoke.
"Look, based on our current level, we can safely train in the
labyrinth we were previously in. As for the skills to move higher... you
would be well aware of our current circumstances. The only person
who can assume the position of a forward is Tetsuo. No matter what,
his recovery was unable to match the rate of deterioration. As such, the
battle conditions will only get worse. If we have another companion to
join us, things would have been much easier. Further... Sachi, come
here for a moment."
Keita raised his hand and called aloud to the black haired spear
user. The petite girl called Sachi came over while holding a glass of red
wine and shyly nodded at me. Keita placed his hand on Sachi's head
before continuing and said:
"This girl's primary skill as you can see, is using a two-handed
long spear. But her skill is relatively low compared our other long
spear user. Therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to convert
her to a shield and sword user. It's just that we never had the
opportunity to practice before this. Furthermore, we are also not
familiar with one-handed swords. If you are willing, will you be her
coach?"
"What's this! Treating me like a little kid!"
Sachi raised her cheek and stuck out her tongue slightly while
smiling and said:
"This is because I have always been responsible for attacking the
enemies from a distance. If you suddenly needed me to move forward
and engage the enemy in close quarter combat, I would be afraid."
"It will be fine as long as you take cover behind the shield. How
many times do I need to repeat myself before you will understand...
seriously. You have been too easily frightened since long ago."
I was only aware of the front lines of SAO where there were full of
killings. No, in my opinion all players competed for resources in an
MMORPG. As such, their interactions were both interesting and
fascinating. When Keita noticed I was looking at him, he shyly smiled
and said:
"Ah.... Our guild members are actually computer research club
members from the same high school in the real world. In fact, she lives
very close to me…... Ah, please don't be concerned since everyone here
is very nice. You will definitely be able to get close with the others very
quickly."
Everyone in that group, Keita included, were decent people. That
was something I already knew since I spent the return journey from
the labyrinth with them. I felt guilty for deceiving that group of people
when I forced a smile and nodded.
"Then... Please allow me to join you all. Also, please offer me
your guidance."
With a second forward, the Black Cats' Party Balance improved
drastically.
No, if any of them were showing any doubt, they would find that
my HP wouldn't drop for some strange reason. However, these kind
friends of all believed me because of what I said, that I made this coat
from some rare materials—and this wasn't a lie—and they never
doubted me.
During a party battle, I was only in charge of defense, and to let
the members behind me deal with the enemies and gain experience
points. Keita and the rest quickly leveled up, and after I joined in for a
week, we were training at a main hunting ground that was a level
higher.
We sat around in a safe zone within the dungeon. Keita was
eating a bento Sachi made as he excitedly told me his dream,
"Of course, our allies' safety is of the most important. But…if, if we
only wanted safety, we just needed to lock ourselves in the city right
from the beginning. Since we're training and increasing our levels like
this, we hope to at least be on the clearing group. Even though the front
lines are far away from us, we can only leave it to elite guilds like the
Knights of the Blood or the Divine Dragons Alliance to conquer
them…eh, Kirito, what's the difference between them and us?"
"Eh…un, information. Those guys have information on which
areas were the most effective in training, how to get the strongest
weapons in the game and so on."
That's the reason why I was in the attack squad, but Keita didn't
seem to be happy about this answer.
"This…is obviously a reason. But I feel that it was willpower.
Their desire to protect their friends, all the players are strong. It's
because of this power that they were able to win in dangerous boss
battles. We're the ones being protected, but our feelings won't lose to
them. So…I feel that if we continue to work hard like this, we can catch
up."
"Really…you're right."
Though I said that, I felt that it wasn't some amazing reason like
that. The reason why the clearing groups had their motivation was that
they always had a top swordsman who stood above thousands of
players. The proof was that if they aimed to clear SAO just to protect
players, those elite players should have provided all the information
and equipment they got to the mid-level players. Then they could have
improved every player's level, and the number of people who joined
the clearing groups would increase.
The reason why they did that was because they hoped to be the
strongest. Of course, I was the same as well. At that time, I would sneak
out of our rest place and go to the front lines to continue leveling
myself up. This act continued to pull my difference in level from the
members of the Black Cats. Even though I knew the outcome, I
continued to betray them.
But at that moment, I more or less believed that if the level of the
Black Cats increased, we would be able to fight in the front lines. At
that point, I thought that Keita's ideals may change the closed nature of
the clearing groups.
In fact, the Black Cats were improving at what could be said to be
an abnormally fast rate. The training area which we were using was a
place I used to clear as part of the front lines. I knew all about that
place, whether it was the danger spots or the effective spots. I
continued to guide them like it was nothing, continued to come up with
the most efficient plans, causing the average level of the Black Cats
guild to greatly surpass that of the mainstream players. When I joined,
we were still ten levels away from the front line, but this gap quickly
became five. We continued to gain momentum and col, and it was even
likely that we would soon have enough to buy a guild home.
However, there was one problem. Sachi's shield swordsman's
transformation couldn't continue on.
But that couldn't be helped. When facing against savage monsters
at close distance, what's more important than the value in levels was
the courage to endure the fear and fight on until the end. Soon after
SAO started, many players died because they panicked and sank into
chaos. If I had to really say it, Sachi was really a quiet coward who
didn't look like she could take the role of a forward.
I felt that there was no need for Sachi to change types because I
had the status that far exceeded that required to be a shield. However,
the other members didn't feel that way. Or rather, they seemed to be
rather apologetic that I had to be the one being the forward, which
would be extremely taxing. Even though she didn't say it because the
morale within the group was good, Sachi felt that the pressure was
becoming greater.
At one night, Sachi suddenly disappeared from the rest place.
Everyone thought that the reason why they couldn't identify her
location from the guild member list was because she was alone in a
dungeon. This made the members under Keita panic, and they
immediately went out to look.
However, I was the only one to insist on searching outside the
dungeon. The apparent reason was that there were several spots that
couldn't be tracked down. But in fact, I already had the high-level skill
'Trace' that could allow me to search for opposing enemies. Of course, I
couldn't explain this to my allies.
As Keita and the rest ran to the dungeon in that level, I went to
Sachi's room, activated the trace function, and followed the light green
footsteps that appeared.
The small footprints went in a way everyone, including me, didn't
expect at all. She disappeared at a drain that was somewhat far from
the main street. I tilted my head and walked in, and saw that in a
corner in the darkness where the water droplets could be here, Sachi
was squatting down with a mantle that she just got, one with an
invisibility function.
"…Sachi."
Once I said that, she shook her shoulder length black hair and
looked up, muttering in surprise,
"Kirito…how did you know that I was here?"
I hesitated about how to answer it, and finally said.
"Instinct."
"…I see."
Sachi smiled and again put her face into the knees she was
hugging. I tried my best to think of words, and said something that
lacked creativity,
"…Everyone's worried about you. They even sent people to the
dungeon to look for you. Hurry up and go back."
This time, it became a long silence. After a minute or two, I
wanted to say the same thing again, but this time, Sachi's weak voice
came while she lowered her head,
"Hey, Kirito, let's run away."
I asked instinctively,
"Run away…from where?"
"From this town, everyone at the Black Cats, monsters…from SAO."
I wasn't so familiar with girls—or even humans such that I could
answer this immediately. After thinking about it for a long time, I
timidly asked,
"Do you…have an intention of committing suicide together?"
After a short silence, Sachi smiled.
"Fufu…yeah, that should be okay…no, sorry. I lied. If I had the
courage to commit suicide, I wouldn't have hid inside the town…don't
stand around. Sit down too."
I didn't know what to do, so I sat down slightly beside Sachi on
the stone floor. From the semi-circle exit of the drain, I could see the
town lights that were as small as the stars.
"…I'm scared of death. Because I'm scared, I practically couldn't
sleep during this time."
Finally, Sachi muttered.
"Why did such a thing happen? Why couldn't we leave the game?
Why is it that we could die even if it is only a game? What could that
Kayaba get by doing this? What's the meaning in this…"
Actually, I could make an answer to each of the five questions. But
even I knew that Sachi wasn't looking for that sort of answer. I tried my
best to think and said,
"Most likely, there's no meaning…and nobody could benefit from
it. The moment the world became like this, everyone lost the most
precious thing to them."
I endured my tears as I told a huge lie to the girl. That's because I
lied to myself to get stronger, and felt the satisfaction of this secret
when I entered the Black Cats gang. In that sense, I obviously got my
benefit.
At that time, I should have told everything to Sachi. If I had even a
teeny-weeny bit of sincerity, I should have revealed my ugly ego out. In
that case, Sachi may have some stress taken from her, and she may
even feel somewhat relaxed.
However, what I could only say was a lie to steel myself more.
"…You won't die."
"Why do you say that?"
"…Even in our current state, the Black Cats are still a strong guild.
We have achieved a safe margin too. If you stay in that guild, you can
continue to live on safely. Also, you don't really need to change into a
swordsman."
Sachi lifted her head and showed me a reliant expression.
However, I couldn't look straight into those eyes and lowered my head.
"…Really? I can live on until the end? Back to reality?"
"Ahh…you won't die. You'll live until the day when the game is
cleared."
Those were words that weren't convincing and had no weight in
them. Even so, Sachi leaned over to me, brought her face over to my left
shoulder and cried for a while.
After a while, I sent a message to Keita and company and brought
Sachi back to our hotel. Sachi went back to her room to rest, and I
waited at the first level at the bar for Keita and the rest to return. I told
them a few things—Sachi needed a much longer time to become a
swordsman, and if possible, she should continue to be a lancer. Also, I
could continue to be the forward.
Keita and the rest were wondering what happened between Sachi
and me, but they happily agreed to my proposal. I heaved a sigh of
relief, but this wouldn't settle the real problem.
From the next night on, Sachi would come over to sleep in my
room. She said that if she continued to be with me and hear that she
wouldn't die, she would be able to sleep peacefully. Now I definitely
couldn't sneak out at night to earn experience. Even so, it didn't mean
that my guilt of lying to Sachi and the rest disappeared.
For some reason, that memory was as compressed as a snowball,
so I couldn't remember much. One thing I was certain of though was
that Sachi and I didn't have a romantic relationship. We never slept in
the same bed together, never cuddled with each other, talk about love
or even look at each other.
Our relationship was more likely stray cats that were licking each
other's wounds. Sachi would forget about her fear a bit because of my
words, and I would rely on her to forget the guilt that I was a beater.
That's right—It was because I neglected Sachi's troubles that I
found out this element of the SAO incident for the first time. Before
that, I probably never felt the real terror of this SAO that had evolved
into a death game. I systematically beat the low-leveled monsters I
beat during the beta test, continued to level up and maintained in this
safety margin. I wasn't the Paladin Heathcliff, but in my memory, my
life had never dropped into the danger zone.
I relied on the vast resources I got easily. Once I knew—that there
were many players who were scared of death like this, I finally found a
way to remove my guilt. Of course, that method was to continue
protecting Sachi and the Black Cats.
For my own satisfaction, I forgot that I hid my level before
entering the guild, forgot the memory that I ended up being the one
protecting them, grooming them to be a top-notch guild. Every night, I
would be at the bedside, comforting Sachi who was curled up in
anxiety, saying to her 'you won't die, you won't die, you'll live on' like a
mantra. Every time I say that, Sachi will show a smile somewhat under
the blanket, stare at me and enter a light sleep.
However, Sachi still died in the end.
Less than a month after that night in the drain, she was hacked to
death by a monster in front of me, and her body and soul were all
scattered.
That day, Keita wanted to buy a little house as our guild home,
brought the sum of money we finally gained and went to meet with the
players who dealt with property. Sachi, I and the other three members
were laughing as we were looking at the guild member common items
column which had no items as we waited for Keita to return back. But
after a while, the mace-user Tetsuo said,
"Let's head to the dungeon before Keita comes back, arrange the
function and scare that guy."
The five of us entered the dungeon which we never went to
before, the one which was just below the 3 levels the frontlines were at.
Of course, I fought in that place before, and I knew that it was a place
that was easy to earn money but had lots of traps. However, I didn't tell
them that.
In the dungeon, the levels were within the safe area, so our
hunting was proceeding smoothly. After an hour, we earned the
targeted amount of money, and just when everyone was ready to head
back and buy things, the member who was the thief discovered a
treasure chest.
At that time, I was vocal about ignoring it. But once I was asked
the reason, I couldn't say that the trap difficulty was up a level from
this level on, and I could only stutter and emphasize that it looked
dangerous.
The alarm trap sounded loudly, and the monsters swarmed into
the room like a tidal wave. Immediately recognizing that the situation
was dangerous, I immediately called for everyone to use the
emergency escape crystal to get away. However, that place was
designated as a place where the crystal would be ineffective—at that
time, everyone, including me, ended up in either light or heavy panic.
The first one to die was the thief who activated the alarm. Then, it
was mace-user Tetsuo, and the male lancer died behind him.
Panicking, I continued to swing the high-level sword skills I hid
and killed waves after waves of monsters. But there were too many,
and I didn't have a chance to destroy the treasure chest that continued
to ring.
As Sachi's HP disappeared completely after being surrounded by
the monster mob, she reached her right hand out to me as if she
wanted to say something. Those widened eyes still showed the glow
that she trusted me, just like every single night, until it was all
heartbreaking.
I couldn't remember how I survived. As I recovered, the mob of
monsters and the 4 allies of mine weren't in that room. But even in that
situation, my HP bar dropped to about half.
Unable to think, I blankly returned back to the hotel.
Keita, who placed the brand new guild home key on the table and
was waiting for us to come back, listened to me—how the 4 of them
died, how I survived, and stared at me without expression. He said
something like how beaters like me didn't have a right to join them.
He ran out of the town in Aincrad, and then jumped over the fence
without hesitation as I followed him from behind, into the endless void.
What Keita said was the truth. It couldn't be debated. It was my
arrogance that killed 4 members of the Black Cats of the Full Moon—
no, 5. If they never met me, they would have continued to remain in the
safe middle zone, and they wouldn't trigger what was a trap.
To survive in SAO, what we needed wasn't reflexes or numerical
value in levels, but ample information. I increased their levels with
high efficiency but didn't tell them information. That was a tragedy I
caused with my own two hands, and I personally killed Sachi who I
swore to protect.
Whether she wanted to curse viciously at her final moment, I had
to endure it. The reason why I continued to look for that rumored
revival item was just to listen to those words.