Marcus told his parents moving now is a bad idea. He told them. Many times. Awkward and weirdo (that's what he thinks of himself), he knew he wouldn't make a lot of friends. Not that he had many before. He's just not good around people. He talks to himself a lot and rambles when he's nervous.

Kairn seems like those mysterious bad boy types. Like those cool guys in black and white aesthetic pictures. Distant and solitary. It looks like he gets along with everyone and would talk to you if you talk to him, but he prefers to be alone. Girls dig him as well. But people just can't seem to figure him out. He doesn't really care about anything; it seems. When he looks at Marcus, he must think 'what a weirdo'. Yeah, that's what Marcus thinks. 
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They started introducing themselves. Now it's his turn.
He looked at me, his indifferent gaze resting on me for a few seconds and said, 
"I'm Kairn." And turned away. 

He's weird. But I'm probably weirder.

"We call him Kai," his friend said. He gave a curt nod.
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The Awkward Boy's Crush (BXB)

 ("Come get your funky love story. I love it when the skies can't sleep. I left a message encased in me. So bye, bye. A flawless ending. So beautiful... you're so...") 


I'm so nervous right now. I've been thinking all day, and it's already evening now and I concluded I like Kai. A lot. 


I'm not surprised because I like a guy, to be honest. Not that I had given my sexuality a serious thought before, but this situation doesn't shock me or disgust me. I was confused, yes. But since the one I liked this much in my life right now turned out to be Kai, I'm rather glad and relieved I finally understand why I care so much about him. I feel lighter now that I've admitted it. 


Chapter 21