When I was almost dying, I saw the world stop.
No, the world didn't stop.
It slowed down.
They moved so slow you would think they froze at that place.
But it wasn't like that.
They moved.
In this slow world only, my thoughts were fast.
[Is this something everybody goes trough when dying?]
I don't know.
The think that I do know is that this doesn't feel real at all.
[If I was going to die anyway, I would've liked it to be painless.]
But here I'm still bleeding, and it hurts so f*cking much.
[I hate this.]
In the slowed down world I saw my life bypass me, and I realized once again that I am a pathetic person.
"Do you regret your life?"
In this slow world there was a young girl with short black hair standing right before me. It seemed like the slowing down of the world didn't affect her at all.
"Do you regret it?"
The young girls said once again.
[Do I regret it?]
Good question.
[I regret my whole life.]
[I really regret it a lot.]
I want to cry, but the tears wouldn't come out.
No, it came out, but it just slowed down just like the rest around me.
"Do you want to change your way of living?", she asked with a small smile on her face.
[I do… I really want to change.]
"You're sure? Maybe it won't be so easy as you thought, maybe you'll rather die than change your way of living."
[That's true, but still…I would still want to try, you know?]
"What if that life is as bad or even worse than the life you had right now?"
[…]
"Don't you want another life because you are scared of dead?"
I stayed silent at the question before.
But…
[I'm not scared of dead because I always felt dead.]
I never lived after I became 10.
I was just a walking corp.
"It's okay."
She showed a beautiful smile.
"I'll help you change your life to the better."
[What?]
The light came out of nowhere and blinded me.
It felt warm.
.
.
.
At that moment the world became normal again, and one person died.