Unable to resist

I had no idea what happened. First, he was looking for some clothes and in the next minute, his lips were on mine. What exactly is going on.

Gerard's kisses were more demanding than the other times and his hands, where on Earth is his hands going to and why was he being so... lustful today?

His hands went further down until he was grabbing her butt cheek. I gasped and felt shivers run down my spine when he did this and instantly, I tried to push him away but he moved further to the bed and I fell on it with him on top of me.

He placed his hand on the bed so that he wouldn't put all his weight on me.

I knew where this was advancing to and in all honesty, I didn't want to go there but something was making me powerless against him.

Somehow, I wanted him even though I didn't want him. This didn't make sense. What was this feeling? How can I want someone and at the same time, not want them?