1: Why I am here

The last thing I saw was the alarm pointing to midnight before I saw myself sleeping on an old bed with a torn lid all over the place, and water drops coming in from the ceiling until I woke up relieved it was a nightmare I got up from my luxurious bed to walk around my father's palace like a princess, and it was my nightmare that one day I would come and lose all my possessions, all my wealth I was afraid to experience the feeling of being poor...

I wake up one morning with a hot cup of coffee, and my servant's car is waiting outside to drive me to college everyone in college knew me, and I don't know why I hated them not all people loved me i was such a narcissist I hated someone who criticized me, and I hated everyone who loved me, and who hated me, because I thought everyone was the same person with interests and exploiters every day, people hate me more and more, and I don't know why my ambition in school was to become a doctor, and I was overreading myself, not because I loved her, not because of my ambition, but because of my fear of being poor...

My father was rich, my mother was poor, he knew her in school, and charmed by her beauty he married her and gave birth to an incomparable jewel of beauty, which is me My father owned his fortune because he was one of the biggest traders in the country he was respected by everyone And my mom used to help him with the job until one day the Rich Party gathered all the rich people of the country in a lavish place unfortunately, my mother was ill that day My dad took me only to that party, got in the middle of the night from that party, and I was sitting with myself because I wasn't social so I could see my father from a distance with a woman who was hugging him until he went to him And I heard from the door crack, Dad said "Don't worry, honey, I gave my wife the medicine at home and she won't come here" That was the shock of my life I ran to my mother until I told her, she told me "Go to sleep. This is none of your business. Thanks for telling me I went to bed last night I'm afraid my mother will get sicker Mom waited for Dad till morning, woke up with screaming coming from downstairs, and suddenly the screaming stopped And my father came out of the palace he went to my mom in a hurry and she told me in tears " what do we do now " ...

And the next day heard the news my mother divorce and my dad came in and said "now you and your daughter get out of my house and you won't take anything from my property" I was in shock, paralyzed for a moment, cold, and even my lips didn't move my mother and I went out of the palace, and from that day on, my father never asked about my mother, and going to my old grandfather's house where my mother grew up It was the house that you saw in my nightmares when I was sleeping that came true I was afraid to go to college and people would find out what happened to me, I was upstairs, and suddenly, one day and a night, I was poor my mother went to work to fetch food for her, and every day I slept on a sea of tears...

I went back to school after a long time, but I didn't tell anyone I was poor They were asking me where I was while you were gone I haven't answered anyone and one day a new guy came to me, studied with us, and he was one of the richest people, and he would always laugh and talk to anybody He went to get to know him, we went out, we met, and from that day on, we were friends the day came when I knew he loved me I had some ideas about using his wealth to get back rich greed overwhelmed me with a fear of poverty I started flirting with him and confessed to him my fake love He promised to marry me a year later I told my mother, and it was my mother's intention to get married, to live my life, to get out of poverty and it was my intention to come back rich, just cold hearted and he loved me we got married A few days later, my mother died because of poverty That was the worst day of my life that day my husband found out about my exploitative reality And yes, the same thing happened to my mother happened to me and now I'm alone in Grandpa house I can't go out because I don't want people to know what happened to me All my dreams and future evaporated and all my nightmares came true.