Maya

Jay has gotten fond of her. Maya. She serves his needs. Last time out he bought her a ring. A symbol? Maybe. She has fallen in love with him. A careless human. She understands him. So she thinks. His character he hasn't revealed yet. He is calm around her. Trying not to piss her off. She serves his needs more than the others. He loves her food. Her choice of songs. He loves her ' as food'.

He has a keen eye for practically everything. He's deemed deceiving as a result. He does his homework. Maya is in a scope.

Having been raised a fatherless bustard he seeks a different kind of love. Not the feminine kind. But seeks it in women. He needs the tough kind of love. But a love that works for him. The kind of woman who's firm but bends to him knowing he's a man. But she needs to be firm and self-driven like a man. A skill they barely possess. He needs a girly girl. One who needs him. One who doesn't really need him as well. Complicated but he can understand. One full of buts. As long as she soothes his demons. He respects women. He uses them more.

Maya is nothing close to his needs. But serves him. She has the relevant 'buts'. A working mess. She's not particularly beautiful. But she attracts him enough for him to hold her purse in front of the female washrooms before the cinemas. Things he's never done before. She doesn't dress as well as he prefers. He begs to take photos with her in the morning when she's late for work. He thinks of her highly subconsciously.

Inside his head is a troubled man. Inside his heart is a wishing lover. He plans on how to get a better-paying job in his country. Also bearing in mind the private sector is better. It has its uncertainties. Though it bears fruit. His mind swirls from dusk to dawn. His heart is alongside it.

His mother wants a grandchild as soon as the year before this. He doesn't have a woman he calls his. He feels he's young. But his mother is aging. His love and respect for women he learned from her. But his atrocities he learned from the motherland. He wants to do good. But he has to choose between good and right. Many a time they never go hand in hand.

The right thing to do is to wife Maya. The good thing for self is love Qara. Dump Maya. Disregard Lisa. But he is a good person. Depends on how you perceive goodness.