woken

when suddenly Adrianna heard this loud crashing sound of glass breaking, that's when Adrianna realized that she had finally woke up from her long yet sweet meaningful dream to the sound of her real father and stepmother fighting and arguing as always, she wanted to fall asleep back but quickly changed her mind as she realized everything will still be the same and that scared her as she wished her dreams were actually real, she wished she actually had a happy meaningful life but she knew her awful painful life will always be the same, by this time tears were rushing down her face rapidly, her window by her couch was open as always, so she went their and sat on the window and turned her phone one listening to sad songs like wishing well by juice WRLD and sad and every body dies in their nightmares by xxxtentacion waiting for the noise and the fighting to stop, but to her it seemed like it only got louder which made her cry harder but them fighting wasn't the only thing she was crying for it was a whole lot more, the pain and depression overwhelmed her this time around which made her think of suicide once more, she tried once but only slit her hand and didn't bother with her wrist, this time she swore she wanted to died and leave the world, to her at this point it would be better for everyone if she wasn't alive, she felt like the whole world was weighting down one her, by this time suicidal methods were already popping up in her head, she the quickly looked at her bedside next to her diary was her key with her ratchet attached, Adrianna picked it up and forced a smile and muttered out "at least today will be the last of everyone's problems which seems to be me" she wiped her tears then stud up and slowly walked to the window still looking at the knife not paying any attention, her feet then itched in a chard on the floor which then pulls the glass lamp on her bedside table and sent it crashing on the floor, hearing the sound Adrianna did hear anything else from her father and stepmother but Adrianna didn't care as she knew that they would have another argument and that her problems was still not gonna leave, Adrianna continued to stare on the knife then muttered again "no one will care, they all want this so I'm just granting their wishes" as tears rushed down her face faster Adrianna closed her eyes and held the ratchet over her right wrist and within a second her blood was pouring out, her father and stepmother rushed in and saw her on the floor with her wrist slit and the lamp glass shattered on the floor, her father rushed to her as she forced a smile, her vision was blurry and her head was aching, but Adrianna felt it was for the best, before going unconscious she could see her blood all around her and she heard her stepmother calling the ambulance, with what she taught was her last breath she muttered "in this world there is no such thing as happy ending.....at least not in my life" while still forcing a smile.