Chapter 3

I wanted to confirm first if my suspicion was right, so I stay silent and calm.

"Sister, this is Hope." Said the girl on the other line. "Daddy told me to let you know that he's in the hospital right now," she added.

I could no longer restrain myself because I had been raging with anger before because of I what I was hearing from this child.

"Will you please stop calling me sister? We're not even related and I don't know who you are." I shouted at her. "And if it's about daddy, tell him that I don't care about him anymore." I added and then I immediately ended up the call to this child I was talking to.

I just smirked when I remembered that after 10 years, I thought he was dead because after his mistress got pregnant and he choose to abandoned us to live with his new family, we haven't been able to hear a news regarding to him. I don't even know if what did he do for a living just to make sure his new family won't starve to death.

I was wondering if what kind of evil spirit have gotten into my god fathere's brain and he commanded his daughter from his mistress just to tell me that he's in the hospital, I don't care! For heaven's sake.

While I was in the middle of my meditation, when there was a sudden knock on my bedroom door.

"Le's eat dinner, we still have our first day of school tomorrow." Beth sighed when I opened the door.

She alked first and then I follow her, it feels like I am floating while I still following her go to the dining area.

I don't know what kind of ant entered my brain to make me feel this concern because of the call that I received. I don't want to tolerate this feeling that I'm feeling right now because he doesn't deserve it. I also don't want that call affect my good mood for tomorrow's first day of class and also Beth's first day of class.

"Sis, aren't you gonna sit so that wecan start eating our dinner?" Beth asked me then I realized that I was just standing on the side of our dining table and was carried away by my thoughts so I immediately sat in my seat.

Nanny has already served our food, and of course I need the food I requested here in front of me. I remembered that I had to do something now, to calm my sister down because I knew she was still bothered by what I did to our nanny. When nanny wa about to turn her back from us, I called her.

"Nanny, about what happened earlier, I'm sorry for treating you that way," I told her and she just smiled at me.

"It's ok honey, I understand. Go ahead and eat then just call me if you need anything else." she answered and then she turn away from us.

I hope that I make my sister's anger and annoyance calm down about what I did earlier. The way how I treated the only one who was always with us here at home.

"I just noticed that you've been anxious before we came her, is there any problem?" Beth asked me.

I know that I really can't escape the sharpness of her sensation when it comes to things like this.

"Nothing, I'm just thinking that you should have reduced your annoyance with mesince I already apologize to nanny." I answered her and I start eating.

"I just hope it doesn't happen again, you know that nanny is the only one we always have with us here, and I can't imagine our life without her so we need to appreciate her hard work for us." She said. "But why did you seem like floating lately?" she asked me again.

"Did mommy text or call you if what time she can get home?" I change our topic just in case I can get through to her.

I don't want her to know that daddy's daughter on his mistress called me and told me about dad's condition now because I know that she will panic.

"No, do you want me to call her?" she replied.

I shook my head because if our set up's like this that mommy can hardly even update us, it's obviously that she's too busy. And for sure she will be sleeping in her office again. I quickly finished my meal and didn't even bother to have dessert, because I'm afraid that Beth might ask me again and what if I couldn't find any excuse anymore. I'm doomed. At the same time we were almost finish, we said goodbye to each other so that we can have time to fix our things for tomorrow.

While I was arranging my things, I remembered how my dad had hurt me with what he had done to us. After how many yearsI can still feel that the wound in my heart is still fresh. I want to forgive and understand him but I can't find a reason to do that, because until now I really don't know the reason why he did that to us.

So even his daughter in his mistress told me about his condition now, I didn't bother to care because he was the reason why my heart is hardened now. I know in myself that I was once a soft hearted person that whatever I do now, I know that I will never get back like the way I was before because what daddy did to us is what hardened my heart.

I prepared what I will wear the next day, I stare at my uniform because tomorrow iI'm gonna be a student again who's trying to make mommy proud even if she has no time for me and for my little sister Bethany.

I don't neglect my studies, at the same time I played every men'sheart that I like, that way I know in myself that I'll feel relieved and that's my way to retaliate against women who have been deceived by assholes man that just play the hearts of women.

I feel s proud of myself whenever I've got victim and hurt the man's feelings. I feel like I avenged mommy's feelings when daddy left us and choose to live by his mistress. I saw how much mom suffered and the only way I can avenge her is to hurt the feelings of dad's fellow man.

I do believe that no man should be confused by a woman's feelings. In social media I see a different issues of wives being cheated on by men and hooked up that's why it gets me even more angry with men's. All men's are the same. I didn't realize that I was thinking too deeply and I didn't even notice that mommy is video chatting on my laptop so I answered it immediately.

I saw that her background behind is in her office so I know she wouldn't be able to come home again tonight.