It isn't yours

Odis

As soon as my pants were off, I shifted. If I’d stayed any longer, I wouldn’t have been able to leave. There was no other choice but to tell him it was a mistake. My heart throbbed in my chest but I only ran faster. As if I could run fast enough to leave the pain behind.

I’d left without looking at him. I couldn’t bring myself to look at his face. I didn’t trust what I would do. I didn’t know what I’d do if I saw the pain I knew I’d put there. I was a coward and I knew it.

I didn’t have the courage to be selfish. If I’d looked him in the eye, I would have crumbled. I would have caved. I wasn’t capable of turning my back on her. I didn’t have it in me. I just couldn’t. One moment of weakness and I’d done something unforgivable. Being with Gabriel? I couldn’t mentally let myself go back there, if I did, I’d turn around.

Being with Gabriel?

We haven’t been that happy since Liv.

Can we not be happy?

I didn’t see anything wrong with being with him.