I'm Drowning

I'm drowning in my past I'm drowning in those painful memories trying to tell myself that things are different that I'm different than I used to be that this time it won't be the same but I'm drowning in her words the words that my anxiety keeps telling me and every time I try to breathe the more it feels like I can't find air I'm drowning and no matter how much I swim I feel like I can't reach the surface I'm drowning but I keep telling myself that it's different that I'm different and this time it won't be the same and I'm not same person I used to be but I'm drowning