I'm Afraid No One Will Ever Want Me

I'm afraid no one will ever want me because no one has ever gave me a real chance and the people who have always find a reason to push me away to leave me behind as just a piece of their past so I'm afraid of trying to ever truly let someone in ever truly let them know the darkness in my mind so when I'm trying to get close to someone I always find myself questioning if I mean to them what they mean to me or if one day they will find a reason to push me away like everybody else I don't want to have this fear I don't want to tell myself it's not okay to feel the feelings because I'm afraid I'm afraid no one will ever want me