Don't Tell Me To Be Positive

Warning this maybe trigger for some read at your own discretion

Don't tell me to be positive if you weren't there if you haven't seen how much I have overcome how much I've changed if you don't know the full story if you don't know how much I have done and went through to be a better version of me but you tell me to be more positive but you don't understand these negative words I put on paper they are the words that are in my head they're not just words but feelings feelings that I need to express you have no idea how many times putting my words on paper has stop me from putting a blade to my wrist so please don't tell me to be positive