I Have Trust Issues

I have trust issues because I can't trust my own mind and the people I did always stabbed me in the back and you've proved to me that I can't trust you when it comes to alcohol and you don't understand that it makes it so hard for me to not to want to be in control of you and how can I not feel that I need to be in control of you how can I trust you when there's alcohol involved because I have trust issues